They Call Me:NiwaKun/Tsukiko I'm a: Young Poet Proud being:Alive D.O.B: 3/26/08 Zodiac: Aries Reppiin: The Roc. I like: Lets see, Umm...Ramen(Beff Flavor),Paki, Gummi Worms, Gummi Bears, JPop, Anime & Manga
Life So Far
It's been a while since i been who i am,
it would seem the path i went down was dammed.
I let the feelings in my heart,
and my soul tear apart.
But now im back where my love for you had it's start.
This is my life so far,
i finally found that lost falling star.
How could i let my love for you slip so far?..
But i'm back,
No matter how life may be,
in my eyes, this love for you is what i need.
Life because of you i can see.
In this wolrd...in life so far, i can breathe.
I cant help but think of you,
when im with you, it seems my heart beats anew.
a feeling is shared that is experainced by the few..
a feeling in which can only be shared with you.
a feeling i always knew.
Even though my heart beats a new beat,
when im with you, the same old rythem repeats.
I learned that a love can be forever, no matter what happens.
and end to it is never.
No matter what, my heart is forever with yours.
i'll always be on the other side of your soul's door.
This is what life is lived for.
Name:Donnell Country:United States State:New York Metro:Rochester Birthday:3/26/1988 Gender:Male
Interests:Donnell Marquel Jackson JR. is *TAKEN*I love him very much...more then anything in this world, and I know he loves me, Because ever since December 18, I couldn't be any more happier. Indeed, I am a lucky girl to be taken by such a wonderful boyfriend (Love always: your Chelley)
and.. my boyfriend's Interests are:
ANIME, ANIME and more ANIME! Of course right....? and his Chelley! lol
I enjoy making my freinds laugh...
Chelley(his girlfriend), Mel,Terence just hanging-out together makes my life worth living.....< *Thats Chelley* <--thank you Niwa, you mkae my life worth living as well :)
Reading and writing poetry is always good...i think LOL (it is good, silly Niwa, I love your poetry) Expertise:KEH!.......
Laughing.....ha ha ha see..see(LoL)
"Kewowe" Occupation:Student Industry:Education/Research
I reeeeally! haven't been on in a while...i would blame any of you for forgeting me..
LOL!..but i have been busy with working and everything and i hadn't found the time like i do now!..heh ehh. But yeah, things have been pretty well, working and stuff....that and the new .Hack game comes out next week! YEESSSS! I have been waiting for that game since i beat rebirth...ha ha. its looks waay better. But as of late....havent really done much but watch anime like, still, Deathnote, oh and they finally made the GTO: earlier years into a anime so thats as well. umm...Darker then Black, still D Gray Man...Naruto and TokyoMajin...even though it feels like it may be ending in a few eps...but it was worth the watch..heh heh.
well, thats all for now, gotta go to the Mall - - - - na no da.
Its been tooooo! Long since my last updated...sorry about that been kinda of busy... well, with school, job searching and everything lol...but alot has happend since my latest update. Let's see....ano.....well, for one...Kiba is finally ending...lol its been a long run and its a pretty good anime lol....but oh well, that and i finally got my Saikano Box Set (The only anime to ever make me choke up).....
That and Chelly managed to get a Job too! She starts today!...and she got excepted to U of R....pretty proud of her....but, as for me...i figured i'de give the college thing a rest for a few...lol, i'll go back in the fall...but i figured i'de focus toward raising more money to move out on my own these days. My 19th Birthday is coming up soon! The 26th or March!...heh heh not sure what i really wanna do but i know for one thing it has to be something to remember, believe it or not, i never use to care about my B-day up untill i met Chelley. More than anything shes changed my life, and i owe her everything.
Well, thats all for updating...Gomenasai!...LOL!... got some apps. to fill out....
I'll post some new poetry up next entry. - - - - na no da.
I guess its really been a long month since i updated, not because i didnt want to but because i usually come to my xanga to vent out my feelings through my poetry and the things i could never say in mere words.
but believe it or not, im in the deepest pain i could ever be in...its funny how it took me this long to figure out, but even more shameful that it took reading a manga to help me figure it out. Its a pain like....
You ever love someone so much you feel bad because of it..i mean though whole purpose of loving and being in it, is protecting. And not being able to do so is so painful, feeling as if you failed that person is on of the most painful things one can expreriance.
Im in a love in which i could never express it in words. Feeling these new emotions in which i never thought imaginable let alone be experianced or shown through me. Everything i am, and what i have so soon become is because of her. and i cant help but to shoulder the both of our pain and burdons because i said i would protect her. Im not trying to be "mean" or a "jerk".....just trying to protect you.
Deepest Sympathy
A love experiance by the few, a feeling in which i never knew. through you, someone as lonely as me has grew. Im suddenly in in the deepest simpathy, simply because youve fallen in love with someone like me. and some how, being with you has become he greatest need. not to be selfish but by my side is where you should be. You where the one that took me from the coldest rain. shielded this lonely heart, from the deepest pains. the one who made me proud of my name. Im udderly in my deepest apology, hoping that you could somehow forgive me. for simply not being the person you wanted me to be. ________________________________________ Im sorry Chelley, i wanted to protect you from anything and every thing but it seems im the one leading to to everything.
In many ways more then one, i guess i am like Sakuya...but in other ways...i couldnt be more far from him. - - - - na no da.
It's been a while since i been on..Gomenasai!...i been busy with figuring things out about school lol...but anyways, alot of good things have happend as well, like one...getting a job at Mcdonalds...and most likely at Walldens' Books...and thats one of my dream jobs...
But mostly i been up to the same thing as always, mangas here....and lots of anime here and there. I've been watching DGrayMan, Deathnote, and BlackBloodBrothers....lol. and a few others which of course i cant remember LMAO!...but all in all i've seen some pretty good anime...lol none of the mangas i wanted to watch havent came out yet...so im laying in wait for them...heh eh.
But i been spending pretty good time with my girfriend, its been fun. Like always, i love spending time with her.
Speaking of which..i eneded up poping like six blood vessels in my eye..LMAO!.. That shit hurts...well, hurted. I had gotten the new .Hack game...(.Hack//G.U. Vol.1: Rebirth)
At least i beat it in 25 hours. but i had 35 hours of game playing it to unlock everything..it was a fun 35 hours of playing but to bad its over, now i have to wait for Vol.2
well, thats it for now..heh eh tell next one. Ja- - - - - na no da.
Watti!.... I suppose its been a while since my last update...but believe me theres a solid....and very much so, painful reason.
yeah, i had a bad case of the 'KidneyStone'.....man! i couldnt beleive how painful it was...the doctors said that they were suprised that i could walk, let alone petended like it was nothing and didnt come to the hospital till the 3 day of pain..but yeah, it lasted for about a week in a half. Pissing blood threw me for a loop, i just figured it was dark because i hadnt drank any wter for a while but it turned out i was wrong. LMAO!...
But in the end, through all the grooling pain, in the end i recieved some pretty good meds!....i never knew they would have given me Vicodin for a pain like that, but then again, it hurted alot...LOL.
But, i had a really good wekend, spent thursday, friday and Saturday mornin' with the person that means the most to me. We watchted the Zodiac, and The Lake House...witch believe it or not was a pretty good movie...ha ha. but, what made it even more better was watching it with her...even though she got a little made because i didnt want to make her breakfast instead i made cereal..LMAO!...priceless!..that is until my mom woke up and....well, like Doumoji would say.."um..uh, busted"...lol....
But then i guess we got in a bad situation yesterday, so heres my apology..int the best way i know how!
Last Night Apology
Last night was filled with so much apologies it feels as if you cry because of me. Im so blind with anger its hard for me to see. hard to see the tears falling in front of me i want to take away your every worry, keep us from any and every quarry. i hope through this apology you can see my sorrowful story. your tears were the least of my intent the one thing in this world my hearts against. Just the sound of your change in voice leaves my heart tense. these are words of my feeling of regret, words of my hearts unrest, words from the soul, your happiness is my only goal.
I always wonder, "does she miss me as much as i miss and love her?"
Because i do.
At times you, seem so far away.
At times i push you away, against my
great judgement and dismay.
And for that at night i pay.
Wondering if she'll forgive me, if she'll hate me.
If, you'll leave me.
Like always my self and myself only decieves me.
To embrace you and simply just be with you relives me.
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