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It's been a while since i been who i am, it would seem the path i went down was dammed. I let the feelings in my heart, and my soul tear apart. But now im back where my love for you had it's start. This is my life so far, i finally found that lost falling star. How could i let my love for you slip so far?.. But i'm back, No matter how life may be, in my eyes, this love for you is what i need. Life because of you i can see. In this wolrd...in life so far, i can breathe.

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Posted by: aka04 Original: 11/14/2006 9:27 AM Views: 5 Comments: 17 eProps: 26 Read Comments Post a Comment Back to Your Xanga Site

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Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Watti!....
I suppose its been a while since my last update...but believe me theres a solid....and very much so, painful reason.

yeah, i had a bad case of the 'Kidney Stone'.....man! i couldnt beleive how painful it was...the doctors said that they were suprised that i could walk, let alone petended like it was nothing and didnt come to the hospital till the 3 day of pain..but yeah, it lasted for about a week in a half.
Pissing blood threw me for a loop, i just figured it was dark because i hadnt drank any wter for a while but it turned out i was wrong. LMAO!...

But in the end, through all the grooling pain, in the end i recieved some pretty good meds!....i never knew they would have given me Vicodin for a pain like that, but then again, it hurted alot...LOL.

But, i had a really good wekend, spent thursday, friday and Saturday mornin' with the person that means the most to me.
We watchted the Zodiac, and The Lake House...witch believe it or not was a pretty good movie...ha ha.
but, what made it even more better was watching it with her...even though she got a little made because i didnt want to make her breakfast instead i made cereal..LMAO!...priceless!..that is until my mom woke up and....well, like Doumoji would say.."um..uh, busted"...lol....

But then i guess we got in a bad situation yesterday, so heres my apology..int the best way i know how!

Last Night Apology

Last night was filled with so much apologies
it feels as if you cry because of me.
Im so blind with anger its hard for me to see.
hard to see the tears falling in front of me
i want to take away your every worry,
keep us from any and every quarry. i hope
through this apology you can see my sorrowful story.
your tears were the least of my intent
the one thing in this world my hearts against.
Just the sound of your change in voice leaves my
heart tense. these are words of my feeling of regret, words
of my hearts unrest, words from the soul, your happiness is my only goal.

Gomena!...
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na no da.

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hey =D hmmm, nothing much with me, i'm just trying to move on in life ever since certain events happen in my life,

wow, u had kidney stone? O_o well, i hope u get well soon and make sure u drink more water from now on

wow...u still use xanga huh? lol, same here, hahaha, myspace is boring as shit for me, i figure xanga is way better

well ttyl dude =D

Posted 11/14/2006 4:18 PM by azn8812 - reply

YOUR POEM MADE ME CRY! this is my favorite...read it over again Niwa..and you'll see JUST how good you have gotten in writing poems....I wonder if you're going to school today? I wonder if your hair got done..I WANT TO SEE IT! lol

And regardless of what you say Im bringing you your stuff...NO MATTER WHAT..even if I HAVE to walk home after that. I don't want you to be bored after all....I love you too much to put you through that misery...I fell asleep till well.. I kept i waking up..and my eyes are so swollen because of lack of sleep. I didn't even finish all my homework, but i did shower lol..SO I DON'T SMELL!

I hope your kidney stone passes soon...its been a long time...i keep on forgettting that you have it..

Im happy Niwa...believe it!

I just miss you! ALOT

I hope you don't mind that there is no update..but my comment can be an update for you. I promise ill update when i get home tonight...REMEMBER! keep my ceremony in mind! ILL KILL U IF YOU LEAVE ME ALL BY MYSELF...

ive decided to really make a new memory book...don't worry ill get color pics...I was thinking of taking real pictures from a camera (disposable) ...thatd be NEAT! because im so corny! lol

I love you Niwa..

I hope you're happy...

please be...

<3 your Chelley

Posted 11/15/2006 6:46 AM by JustUs_2 - reply

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yes it has been! eh...school x_o what about you? ^___^ thanx

Posted 11/15/2006 7:35 AM by XXB_Dustin_Steel_XXB - reply

hello~ um.. ive been alright. nothing new happened. im still sleepy from my nap. @.@

Posted 11/15/2006 9:17 PM by wistfulwings - reply

maybe. sleep is good. [:
do you know how to do a charlie brown?

Posted 11/16/2006 5:24 PM by wistfulwings - reply

yea...myspace is too over-rated..lol..

well, oki, thats great u feel a bit better =D

thnx

Posted 11/17/2006 1:31 AM by azn8812 - reply

omg no i haven't. nor have i been reading it... im too buzy with school work.. and college applications.. as soon as the winter time is over.. i'll be free.

Posted 11/17/2006 6:14 AM by miss_reggie - reply

are the eps awesome?

Posted 11/17/2006 6:14 AM by miss_reggie - reply

^_^ me too! i can't wait for that to come...i hate my school >> what grade are you in? o.o

Posted 11/17/2006 7:40 AM by XXB_Dustin_Steel_XXB - reply

Man sorry to hear about the kidney stone... i heard those are mad painful... Wish u da best of luck with recovering on that one... So any new anime u been watchin??? I'm going to have a Anime/Physics Marathoon over Thanksgiving weekend... Since I'll be in the woods with little Technology or life for that fact around me... well... Jaa!!!

Posted 11/18/2006 3:44 AM by Afroboy84 - reply

wat!?!?! u been sick! >_<;; hope u feel better niwa ;_;

.....nothing new ever happens to me if u noticed ._.;;

Posted 11/18/2006 11:01 PM by xXLilRikuXx - reply

just check up on her an im looking for a perament layout

Posted 11/24/2006 3:52 PM by larry_love - reply

It's been a while.

I hope you get better with the kidney stone thing, and gook luck at college.

On another note, I think it's kinda low to try and steer your friends from talking to who they want like I'm the plague. I wouldn't do that now, nor have I in the past.

Posted 11/27/2006 10:12 PM by Usuratonkachi_san - reply

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eek sounds like that hurts O_O sry I didn't comment back in like a bajillion years. I, unfortunately, have no such excuse as yours >_> thanx for the b/g props :)

p.s. I like your poem

Posted 12/1/2006 4:03 PM by Daughter_Of_Destruction - reply

yo..we need to chill this week..and i need to talkk to u about skipping school tuesday ight pc

Posted 12/2/2006 11:14 AM by kurosaki_05 - reply

hey was up!! its been so l0ng im at my bfs hous right now and im grounded from the computer till im 18!!!! it sux!!! well any ways im glad you didnt forget about me!!!! well gotta go bye!!!

Posted 12/2/2006 3:12 PM by lms_anime_lover - reply

HIIIIIIIIII long time no talk neh? =D

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Here I am again trying to tell the person I love most, that I¡|m deeply in love with her. That I am, Chelley, you keep me going in this life, this world that I have learned to hate so much. The very thought that at the end of each and every day I may get to hold you in my arms, that I will get to just see you makes every day worth going through. Just too simply whisper into your ear that, ¡§I love you.¡̈ To some day tell the world that I have managed to find the one for me. I can¡|t say that I want you to be with me and only me because I¡|m not the type to act that selfishly. I do love you but, at the same time I don¡|t. Simply because the words, ¡§I love you¡̈ just doesn¡|t fully explain this feeling that I have for you. There is just no words that could explain this feeling, I wish I could but it can¡|t be. I just know that I think of you and only you when all else seems to fail, when I feel down in any way I know that your always there. Just as I¡|m always and will always be there for you. When you fall I will be the one to pick you back up, when you cry I will be the one to dry away your tears. When you walk I will be there to walk with you. And even on that walk when you get tired, I will be that person willing to carry you the whole way there. And you know why¡K? Simply because I love you, because I need you in my life for it to be complete. For me myself to be complete, you¡|re a piece of me. I need you here with me. I want you here with me. I want to be that person to give, to experience all of those moments you so often think and dream about. I guess the reason why I have held back from doing all of these things was because I just didn¡|t want to jump to anything before knowing for shore how I really felt. Now I do and I have nothing to not from you, not the world and not myself. I LOVE MICHELLE NGUYEN!!! And there¡|s not a second of hesitation in me saying that because I do. Most people look for love or that feeling, but it came to me you came to me. .we came to each other. Now that were here together I don¡|t want it to end. I don¡|t want this fantasy come true to end. This, you are the best thing that has ever happened to Donnell, that you are. This feeling is the best thing that has ever happened to Donnell¡Kyes, yes. Being with you is the one thing I want most from life, the only thing. That I can say without feeling unsure because I am sure, I know that I am in love. Even if somehow we were apart you still would be here with me, in my heart. In my heart you will always be. There will never be anyone in life that will touch or understand as you have. Someday I will show you how pretty you are, no matter what anyone one say. You¡|re the most beautiful person I have ever met, weather in looks or personality. I love you for you; I love you for being the first person to understand me, to love me. The first to want to be with me because they love me, not because they think I¡|m cute. Yes, yes. Chelley you are just too kewaii. I love you pretty smile, I love that you know what I am going to say before I even say it. It proves that you do understand me, that we understand each other. I couldn¡|t see myself with any other. Someday I will be there everyday for you, I will hold you in my arms and sing you to sleep without any hesitation. Michelle, ¡§LOVE¡̈ so many reasons why I would choose you first. I have just simply fallen for you, till the end of all time I will stay with you. Till the end of all time I will keep falling for you. And the only time I would ever hit the ground is if I know your there with me, by my side to fall with me. Well until our next and first moment¡K.. NA NO DA!!! With anything and everything and every fiber of my being: Niwa-kun -->

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