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Saturday, May 05, 2007

Sat, 05 May 2007 13:18:51 GMT

Ohiyo!...sorry yet again.

I reeeeally! haven't been on in a while...i would blame any of you for forgeting me..

LOL!..but i have been busy with working and everything and i hadn't found the time like i do now!..heh ehh.
But yeah, things have been pretty well, working and stuff....that and the new .Hack game comes out next week! YEESSSS!
I have been waiting for that game since i beat rebirth...ha ha.
its looks waay better.
But as of late....havent really done much but watch anime like, still, Deathnote, oh and they finally made the GTO: earlier years into a anime so thats as well. umm...Darker then Black, still D Gray Man...Naruto and Tokyo Majin...even though it feels like it may be ending in a few eps...but it was worth the watch..heh heh.

well, thats all for now, gotta go to the Mall
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Friday, March 16, 2007

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 13:45:28 GMT

OHIYOOOOO! Niwa here.

Its been tooooo!
Long since my last updated...sorry about that been kinda of busy...
well, with school, job searching and everything lol...but alot has happend since my latest update.
Let's see....ano.....well, for one...Kiba is finally ending...lol its been a long run and its a pretty good anime lol....but oh well, that and i finally got my Saikano Box Set (The only anime to ever make me choke up).....

That and Chelly managed to get a Job too!
She starts today!...and she got excepted to U of R....pretty proud of her....but, as for me...i figured i'de give the college thing a rest for a few...lol, i'll go back in the fall...but i figured i'de focus toward raising more money to move out on my own these days. My 19th Birthday is coming up soon! The 26th or March!...heh heh not sure what i really wanna do but i know for one thing it has to be something to remember, believe it or not, i never use to care about my B-day up untill i met Chelley. More than anything shes changed my life, and i owe her everything.

Well, thats all for updating...Gomenasai!...LOL!...
got some apps. to fill out....

I'll post some new poetry up next entry.
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Friday, January 26, 2007

Fri, 26 Jan 2007 13:50:28 GMT

Hey!!!
Its been a while, Ohiyo!

I guess its really been a long month since i updated, not because i didnt want to but because i usually come to my xanga to vent out my feelings through my poetry and the things i could never say in mere words.

but believe it or not, im in the deepest pain i could ever be in...its funny how it took me this long to figure out, but even more shameful that it took reading a manga to help me figure it out.
Its a pain like....

You ever love someone so much you feel bad because of it..i mean though whole purpose of loving and being in it, is protecting.
And not being able to do so is so painful, feeling as if you failed that person is on of the most painful things one can expreriance.

Im in a love in which i could never express it in words. Feeling these new emotions in which i never thought imaginable let alone be experianced or shown through me. Everything i am, and what i have so soon become is because of her. and i cant help but to shoulder the both of our pain and burdons because i said i would protect her. Im not trying to be "mean" or a "jerk".....just trying to protect you.

Deepest Sympathy

A love experiance by the few,
a feeling in which i never knew.
through you, someone as lonely as me has grew.
Im suddenly in in the deepest simpathy, simply because
youve fallen in love with someone like me.
and some how, being with you has become he greatest need.
not to be selfish but by my side is where you should be.
You where the one that took me from the coldest rain.
shielded this lonely heart, from the deepest pains.
the one who made me proud of my name.
Im udderly in my deepest apology, hoping that
you could somehow forgive me.
for simply not being the person you wanted me to be.
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Im sorry Chelley, i wanted to protect you from anything and every thing but it seems
im the one leading to to everything.

In many ways more then one, i guess i am like Sakuya...but in other ways...i couldnt be more far from him.
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Sunday, December 10, 2006

Sun, 10 Dec 2006 17:00:49 GMT

Ohiyo Godaimas!..

It's been a while since i been on..Gomenasai!...i been busy with figuring things out about school lol...but anyways,
alot of good things have happend as well, like one...getting a job at Mcdonalds...and most likely at Walldens' Books...and thats one of my dream jobs...

But mostly i been up to the same thing as always, mangas here....and lots of anime here and there.
I've been watching D Gray Man, Death note, and Black Blood Brothers....lol.
and a few others which of course i cant remember LMAO!...but all in all i've seen some pretty good anime...lol none of the mangas i wanted to watch havent came out yet...so im laying in wait for them...heh eh.

But i been spending pretty good time with my girfriend, its been fun.
Like always, i love spending time with her.

Speaking of which..i eneded up poping like six blood vessels in my eye..LMAO!..
That shit hurts...well, hurted.
I had gotten the new .Hack game...(.Hack//G.U. Vol.1: Rebirth)

At least i beat it in 25 hours.
but i had 35 hours of game playing it to unlock everything..it was a fun 35 hours of playing but to bad its over, now i have to wait for Vol.2

well, thats it for now..heh eh tell next one.
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Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 13:27:31 GMT

Watti!....
I suppose its been a while since my last update...but believe me theres a solid....and very much so, painful reason.

yeah, i had a bad case of the 'Kidney Stone'.....man! i couldnt beleive how painful it was...the doctors said that they were suprised that i could walk, let alone petended like it was nothing and didnt come to the hospital till the 3 day of pain..but yeah, it lasted for about a week in a half.
Pissing blood threw me for a loop, i just figured it was dark because i hadnt drank any wter for a while but it turned out i was wrong. LMAO!...

But in the end, through all the grooling pain, in the end i recieved some pretty good meds!....i never knew they would have given me Vicodin for a pain like that, but then again, it hurted alot...LOL.

But, i had a really good wekend, spent thursday, friday and Saturday mornin' with the person that means the most to me.
We watchted the Zodiac, and The Lake House...witch believe it or not was a pretty good movie...ha ha.
but, what made it even more better was watching it with her...even though she got a little made because i didnt want to make her breakfast instead i made cereal..LMAO!...priceless!..that is until my mom woke up and....well, like Doumoji would say.."um..uh, busted"...lol....

But then i guess we got in a bad situation yesterday, so heres my apology..int the best way i know how!

Last Night Apology

Last night was filled with so much apologies
it feels as if you cry because of me.
Im so blind with anger its hard for me to see.
hard to see the tears falling in front of me
i want to take away your every worry,
keep us from any and every quarry. i hope
through this apology you can see my sorrowful story.
your tears were the least of my intent
the one thing in this world my hearts against.
Just the sound of your change in voice leaves my
heart tense. these are words of my feeling of regret, words
of my hearts unrest, words from the soul, your happiness is my only goal.

Gomena!...
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Thursday, November 02, 2006

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 13:54:24 GMT

Gomenasai!...

It's been a while since my last update...
but that only because i couldnt update because i havent seemed like myelf, so i figured when i did i would update again..LOL....anyways, i went for a walk last night and realized a few things. Mainly that i have in fact been a little sad....but not because i wasnt happy, just because i havent been making the person i love most feel happy...so i tried just like i always did to make her happy yesterday, im happy i was able to make her feel that way...because just with that smile, that laugh i was able to feel that happiness again...

that and because i havent been writting poetry for a while either...but i went to that same old spot by the river last night and it gave me some thoughts on poems....a came up with one...but had no intentins of writting it down...i just wanted to say one...one from my heart...one about how i have been feeling....well, i guess heres one...lol.

Fleeting Memories

With this shallow sleep, these falling tears
When with you they all disappear.
In the depths of my mind, these happy memories.
seem like they could fade away, that i could lose you any day.
Chasing you in my mind...never finding the right words to say..
to keep you from walking away.
With the changing of seasons its fall again.
the falling leaves, the unlight streets.
in my dreams my anger fleets. never again will this sadness
speak.

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Oh yeah chelley, John legend made a new CD i figured we should listen to it together!...

i guess thats all....ja-
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Thursday, October 26, 2006

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 13:43:25 GMT

LMAO!...surpass me?!...thats a good one Chelley!..ha ha i guess i needed a laugh..

Tonigaku!..i have the BEST! news!...heh heh...MY SCORES FROM MY EXAM!...

Science: 22/25 = 550

Social Studies: 17/25 = 500

Reading: 12/20 = 390

Math: 17/23 440 *Second! Highest out of whole school!*

Writing: 22/25
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Essay: 3.5 = 600

Total: 22480......wayyyyyy more then enough to take the final in November!...

Yatttaaaaa! i did it...heh ehh
i was so shocked heh heh but the techer didnt want to give me a 4 on my essay so she just gave me a 3.5 which sucked but who cares...i did it lol...
well, i guess im gonna study for the November finale and then hello! transfer papers! lol....

well, thats all for my update....
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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 14:14:19 GMT

..."I never knew...i never knew that everything was falling through, that everyone one i knew was waiting on a que"...heh heh sorry...thats my fav. part...

Tonigaku!...i did it!....Yattaaaaaa!...i found out during my exam that i nailed the essay question...MAN! i spent all day wondering how i did and i found out i passed!...now all i have to do is do the same come this November...and "hello transfer papers!"..LOL!.

My English teacher came up to me during the first part of the retake today and said..."good job on your essay"...ha ha who would have thought that all those years of English with Ms. Prok would have helped so well!...gotta give props to my past high school English teachers..i owe them...heh ehh might have to go and visite Edison Tech. sometime soon to say thanks!

Well, i guess i should get some more practice in DDR...Chelley might come over and play me...but im not ready...my legs hurt from playing too much last night..im tired..LOL!....oh well...i'll do my best!....thats all!

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Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Tue, 24 Oct 2006 14:55:41 GMT

YATTA!...LOL!

Man!...i glad thats over..i took the second part of the test today..i meant th math part 1 and 2 were easy no sweat...but man! when i got to the writting part..man was i pissed! i mean they gave me a really shitty essay question...i think it was...umm...oh, yeah..

"everyone has a rule in which they go by, whats yours and what expectations and limitation does it set for you"...it was that hard..but i couldnt think of a good essay from it...that is one that would give me a perfect score!...but i think in the end i wrote at least a 3 essay, i hope! lol...
I got a little farther in that Shadow of the Collassus game....they're right the in-game CGI is really beautiful....i still have about 7 more collassus to kill i think there are about 16 in all i killed 8 of them in like 45 hours..ha ha.

But yeah, i would'nt mind getting another game....just as long as you promise to help me pick this time...oh! and you would have to ask my mo yourself this time...you know my mom and she likes you..she wont say 'No'...ha ha..
And, it is freezing outside....i can wait till i transfer schools..i hate taking the bus no its to cold, lol...juat kidding, the rain just made it cold...but i do hate taking the bus to school though.

well, im gonna go study a little bit more for the retake part tomorrow....
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Monday, October 23, 2006

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 13:12:45 GMT

Oi...Ohayo Godaimas!.....

Not much here, tired...i had my Test today...man it was tooo! damn early...lmao...but yeah, the first half is over so i just have to wait till tomorrow to take the second half...im not ready..XD so im just gonna study for the rest of the day till Chelley comes over.

Tonigaku!...on another note...lol...i had fun at Fear at Frontier this weekend.
Lets see, it was a pain! to meet up with everyone...not to mention our friend Linda!
And Eric was being a pain just to meet up with her...it looked like it was all going down hill until we finally met up with her after wasting an hour looking for her..
But i guess it was worth it to see the scared faces on her and My Chelley...and of course i added my Two-cents my scaring them a little more! hahha...but thats not the best part...

Chelley literaly fell to the floor when she got scared. It was hilarious!...well, the first time she tripped over the cord...but she ran out of every hunted house toward the end! LMAO XD.

The lines though, they really pissed me off!...

not to mention that but Linda was bitching untill i went to by her some damn New Ports.
So after waiting in line for so long i had to walk to the damn store to get them!..

but, all in all it was a fun and funny day...nothing was missing lmao!...being with chelley and some friends...
heh heh...that was a good number...just 4 of us..heh heh..i have to admit...Mel being there would have made things a little weired haha haha..but whatever...i dont wish her bad or anything....but since the whole terence thing she wasnt fun being around...hope shes doing well....LMAO! XD ...*that sounds familair...wonder where i got that from...*..ha ha neh, Chelley?!...
well, Ja-
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